Sometimes when I’m making a video, I realize that I’m forcing myself to have a unique opinion on a topic when, in fact, it isn’t an honest opinion….it’s just me searching for something interesting to say. That’s OK, I guess, but I’ve been trying not to do it as much.
Sometimes I’m not interesting. I like science fiction books and taking pictures and watching the same TV shows as everyone else. It’s exhausting to try and make every single part of your existence interesting. I hereby give myself permission to be boring.
okay, great, but remember the Life In A Day film?
kevin macdonald (the director), in almost every press thing i saw related to the film, would use some variation of the word banal.
if words were fleets (and maybe they are, after a fashion), that one was his flagship.
what is banal to you may not be to the rest of us, right?
plus, i think we have this ability as human beings to fall in love with (or, less dramatically, be really interested in) little things that just about anyone does, given time and/or proximity. like, my flatmate recently told me she enjoys watching me fix my eyeliner in the morning because i’m “so precise.” this process that barely registers in my mind* is somehow a strong and interesting image in hers.
similarly, one of my teachers in high school had this habit of visiting the same starbucks i went to around the same time as me. what was interesting about it was he always rode his bike to school, so when he got to the shop, he was all knobby teacher knees and bike shorts. awkward, but interesting. the next time i’d see him he’d be in teacher mode— button down shirt with a tie and slacks. he probably never thought anything of it, but for me it was a reminder that he was, like, a person.
there’s also this jogger i pass on my way to school with whom i’ve never spoken—- i can tell when he’s in a bad mood because as he waits for the crossing signal his mouth tightens and his eyebrows go all squiggly. when he’s got extra time, he looks up at the sky and smiles ever so slightly. i genuinely like passing him. he is interesting even as a person who is out of context with relation to my life.
so maybe don’t worry about trying to be interesting? you
probably are, by virtue of being human.